November 13, 2007 at 7:55 am (family, relationships, weird)
I had the most awful dream last night. The plague was rife in England again and my moomin had it, but somehow I didn’t. Not even the plague would stop me snuggling up with her so that’s what we were doing, lying in bed having a good old snuggle. Then a man in white hooded overalls and a gas mask comes into my room to take moomin and I ask him if I can go with her. He knows that I am plague free and tells me that moo is going to be incinerated (she isn’t even dead!). I tell him that I am aware of that fact but I still want to go. He realises why and lets me into moomin’s body bag and puts us on the back of the truck.
That was the end of my dream. I woke up feeling… not right, but I gave moomin a big squeeze and a kiss. I came downstairs and checked my emails only to find one from my twin sister. She had had a dream that me and moomin had moved to Reading without telling her. This dream was so real to her that she woke up having a panic attack!
Isn’t it weird that we both had equally disturbing dreams on the same night?
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September 12, 2007 at 4:21 pm (children, drudgery, family, jobs, life, moaning, work)
I am dead on my feet at the moment. Working six days a week, looking after a child and trying to run a house is a bloody knackering thing to do. Because of the lack of staff at work I am also being shown how to do many more things, this is leaving me mentally drained too and of course in a few weeks I start on my OU course, yay! To top it all off my social calendar has never been so full! This weekend is the only weekend where I have nothing to do, well it was until I found out that mum is going into hospital to have her knee replaced on Sunday so I shall be spending some time with her. Billy isn’t round tonight (as he normally is) so I am going to attempt to do washing up, tidying and washing of clothes, oh and then I’ve got to make dinner at some point, go through Maisie’s spellings and listen to her read.
Something is going to go pop soon, I’m betting on my feet and my brain.
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August 24, 2007 at 8:16 am (children, family, life)
I had a little, mini breakdown on Tuesday and it wasn’t because I had just seen the Bratz movie either. Little things had been getting to me over the past weeks but on Tuesday it all came to a head. I was in the bath having a very relaxing time when I looked over at the loo roll holder. Just below the loo roll holder I saw a hole, ‘how did that get there?’ I thought. I called Maisie up to ask her and she admitted that she had done it. I just burst into tears, which therefore meant that Maisie burst into tears.
I wasn’t crying about the hole. I think I was crying because being a mother is the most terrifying thing a woman can do in her life. It’s great when your kids are tiny as you have complete control over them, but there comes a time when you have to start letting your little ones think for themselves. Even though you’ve spent many years showing the right way to do things we all know (from personal experience) that as a child you know the ‘really‘ right way to do things. Children want to test the barriers too and so do things to defy their parents. I think back to myself as a child testing the barriers and knowing best and I think ‘oh my god, I was the stupidest and most hideous child there was.’ My head knows that this is one of the reasons why I am now an (almost) sane adult and that Maisie needs to make mistakes to learn from them. My heart wants to wrap Maisie up in cotton wool and make her safe for the rest of her life, but this can’t be. I am certain that she will make many good decisions in her life, but I am also certain that she will make some bad ones.
I look at people all around me and I think that they have turned out ok, I am sure they got into some sticky situations when they were younger. Why can’t I realise that this will happen to Maisie and she will still turn out ok too?
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July 30, 2007 at 6:37 pm (drudgery, emergencies, family, fillums, fun, interest, life, t.v., water, work)
Tired of not having water, but thankfully it should be back on tomorrow for flushing and bathing use. Billy just told me that he is having a bath in a min, but I have to wait. When tomorrow comes and I hear that sound of cisterns filling up I shall be in the bath like a shot and stay in it for some time… although not too long as the water will still be a bit dodgy.
In other news I got the preparatory material for my OU course. I am really looking forward to this as my sister is doing it too. This means competition which in turn means that we will be doing good work (hopefully). At work my boss is on holiday and I feel like I’m running the place, which I suppose is good training for when I do actually run the place. Having just one day off a week is very draining though, I wanted a lie in yesterday but also didn’t want to waste the day. What is a young girl to do? Well, I stayed in bed till 9.30, that’s what I did!
I have to go shopping on Wednesday as I have a pirate party to go to on Saturday. It’s meant to be on a boat but there still may be a chance that the water is too high so it may be moved to a pub nearby. I have decided to use the dresses I made for re-enactment as the costume as they are wenchy/pirate type dresses. I need to add stripy tights, bandanna, big earrings, eye patch and cutlass to this equation.
Last night I watched Hairspray and I have to say I loved it and smiled all the way through. Gonna watch the last episode of Jekyll in a minute, I am sure there will be less smiling whilst watching that.
*Edit* I watched the last episode of Jekyll and I did actually smile. It was very good, a tad OTT at times but overall a very enjoyable series. I’m glad I watched the whole thing.
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